As I laid here trying to nap because I'm working my 3rd shift tonight, things raced through my mind, and one was why my marriage was destined to fail from the beginning!
This was going to be until death, I was determined to make it work, in spite of all criticism from family and friends! I'm not the reason it failed, it was circumstances beyond my control! It was five family members who died over a period of four years, the four years of my marriage!
They say when crisis hits, how you handle it determines whether it drives you closer to father apart! We had one after another, CRISIS, DEATH OF LOVED ONES! It drove us away from each other, our friends and family and away from God!
We should have been clinging to God, to each other and to family and friends! But we didn't and then it happened!
It wasn't my fault he turned to someone else for comfort, for happiness apart from each other! I believed if I had not worked as much, been a better wife, he wouldn't have left me for someone else!
But, it wasn't my fault! I know that now! The pain is still there, only a year being apart, but still fresh in my memory!
My life isn't over! God answers prayer, He gives us strength and healing to our pain and grief!
Now I will focus on the gifts that God has given to me! My huge and loving family, my children, my friends, my church family and my wonderful fulfilling career!
God is my strength and my present help, my redeemer, my Savior!
Thank you Lord for being with me, and with teaching me and blessing me everyday!
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