This year Christmas was quick and sweet! I worked the third shift, 12 hours that evening, so we gathered at my sisters for brunch, opened gifts and quickly hurried on our way to the next house! Adam my youngest spent the first Christmas Eve night with me since he was four years old! He had always stayed with his Dad and then came to my house on Christmas Day
This year we stepped up to video web chat with family on the west coast! We all enjoyed being able to see each other in our living rooms and kitchens with all the decorations and Christmas goodies around!
And seeing the newest great grand children were an extra treat for us all!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
DEATH OF A MARRIAGE
As I laid here trying to nap because I'm working my 3rd shift tonight, things raced through my mind, and one was why my marriage was destined to fail from the beginning!
This was going to be until death, I was determined to make it work, in spite of all criticism from family and friends! I'm not the reason it failed, it was circumstances beyond my control! It was five family members who died over a period of four years, the four years of my marriage!
They say when crisis hits, how you handle it determines whether it drives you closer to father apart! We had one after another, CRISIS, DEATH OF LOVED ONES! It drove us away from each other, our friends and family and away from God!
We should have been clinging to God, to each other and to family and friends! But we didn't and then it happened!
It wasn't my fault he turned to someone else for comfort, for happiness apart from each other! I believed if I had not worked as much, been a better wife, he wouldn't have left me for someone else!
But, it wasn't my fault! I know that now! The pain is still there, only a year being apart, but still fresh in my memory!
My life isn't over! God answers prayer, He gives us strength and healing to our pain and grief!
Now I will focus on the gifts that God has given to me! My huge and loving family, my children, my friends, my church family and my wonderful fulfilling career!
God is my strength and my present help, my redeemer, my Savior!
Thank you Lord for being with me, and with teaching me and blessing me everyday!
This was going to be until death, I was determined to make it work, in spite of all criticism from family and friends! I'm not the reason it failed, it was circumstances beyond my control! It was five family members who died over a period of four years, the four years of my marriage!
They say when crisis hits, how you handle it determines whether it drives you closer to father apart! We had one after another, CRISIS, DEATH OF LOVED ONES! It drove us away from each other, our friends and family and away from God!
We should have been clinging to God, to each other and to family and friends! But we didn't and then it happened!
It wasn't my fault he turned to someone else for comfort, for happiness apart from each other! I believed if I had not worked as much, been a better wife, he wouldn't have left me for someone else!
But, it wasn't my fault! I know that now! The pain is still there, only a year being apart, but still fresh in my memory!
My life isn't over! God answers prayer, He gives us strength and healing to our pain and grief!
Now I will focus on the gifts that God has given to me! My huge and loving family, my children, my friends, my church family and my wonderful fulfilling career!
God is my strength and my present help, my redeemer, my Savior!
Thank you Lord for being with me, and with teaching me and blessing me everyday!
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